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Howdy Folks! Wow, it's been awhile since I last posted anything up here. But now it's time for sure. So you're probably wondering where I located to and I'm about to tell you if you stay patient... On August 17th, I moved into my new apartment with Cyndi L. in Nashville, TN!!!
Psalms 130- 1Out of the depths I cry to you, Lord 2Lord, hear my voice Let your ears be attentive to my cry for mercy. 3If you, Lord, kept a record of sins, Lord, who could stand? 4But with you there is forgiveness, so that we can, with reverence, serve you. 5I wait for the Lord, my whole being waits, and in his word I put my hope. 6I wait for the Lord more than watchmen wait for the morning, more than watchmen wait for the morning, 7Israel, put your hope in the Lord, for with the Lord is unfailing love and with him is full redemption. 8He himself will redeem Israel from all their sins. TNIV version...
This is where I am these days in my life with the Lord. It is tough, but needed in my daily walk with Him; a time of refining, pruning, and waiting upon the Lord. Okay, that's all I have to say regarding this scripture...
Man, this place feels like home and I know that I'll make this place my home in time. After making the leap of Faith to leave everything I knew as TM behind and embrace a new season in the Lord. To really take the Lord at His word when it states in the Bible that He would take care of all my needs.
I left Teen Mania in a good heart state and opened the door for Nashville...the first couple of weeks I was depressed or should I say oppressed in ways that I never dealt with before with my mind and feeling defeated. I had less money then I thought I would have for the move from Texas to Tennessee with a break at Cyndi's house in Arizona. When I got Nashville, I thought I would find a job in a matter of days or weeks...I still don't have a job and no car. And I've been here since August 17th. All the plans that I hoped and believed that I would obtain haven't happened at all.
But the one thing that did happen was that the Lord did and has continued to take care of me with my finances, friendships, and getting plugged into amazing church. This is a season of being content and trusting that the Lord does hear my cry and will be attentive to me.
I hope and pray that this has encouraged someone today and to know that you’re not alone in this.
Be blessed and walk the course that the Lord has you on with full obedience and grace.
I was just looking over some old post on Good 'Ole Xanga. Man...it's been a long time since I last wrote anything on my site.
Times have changed, I've grown, and I'm now moving on.
This is my last year at TM...what a long season in a foreign land. I'm not the same girl that started out questioning everything the Lord was putting in my direction and now I'm open to whatever, where ever He wants me to go nowadays.
The Outline of the Past almost 6 years: 1st Year~ August Intern 2nd Year~ Aug Ministry Team "Keep It Real" Tour 3rd Year~ Aug MT "Run To The Battle" Tour 4th Year~ Road Manager "Branded By God" Tour 5th Year~ Resident Director with the GI Ladies 6th Year~ Road Manager "Here Comes Trouble" Tour
I don't put those items there to boast, but to say that the Lord kept me at TM this long. And now this season is over and I'm moving on!
So often It's easy for me to dwell on the all the bad things in life. I just realized that I'm loved by many without me having to pay for their friendship.
I don't deserve anything that I have; only the Lord has put what I have in my hands. Opportunities of life and love, all different kinds of people that cross my path.
Why can't we all just be happy with where we are and know that the place/s we are, are the exact place/s that we need to be.
I want a different perspective in my life. I'm not satisfied with me and don't want to excuses myself any longer.
Does it ever amaze you that the things that bug you one day make a difference the next?
This is a year of new beginnings; can’t you feel it all around you?
I know I can.
I was so focused to just vent about my break and forgot that some people many have not liked what they read.
My sister called last Tuesday with some strong disagreements regarding my venting.
Just to clear up anything that my vomiting on Xanga may have blurred your perspective about me and my family.
Everyone comes from a dysfunctional family background. I’m just the person to let you know right off the bat.It is easy to be prideful and think that you have it all together.And that’s not true.Right now, I’m looking at myself and asking the Holy Spirit to reveal light on darkness.And reopen wounds that haven’t healed properly. If anything you take from this is the true dependence on the Jesus and not myself. I hope you don’t judge me or seat there and point the finger at my family.I’m not perfect nor my family and friends.I’m just the first one to acknowledge that.I need Jesus Christ to be the person that He wants me to be. Authentic, Plain, and Simple.
There are times when I think I’m the only one going through a very strange season, but then I’m reminded that’s not the case at all.The point is there is a lot of pride within the Church and we are supposed to be humbled with humility.I’m on a tangent, but I think it’s a very valid point.
Currently Listening Pages By Shane & Shane Embracing Accusations see related
Happy New Year Everyone! There is a new fresh wind blowing this season that is much needed for this time. I just believe that the Lord is going to move like never before, and I'm waiting in expectation for big things to occur.
I hope everyone’s Christmas was great and relaxing to be among family and friends. For me, it was good at the beginning, but sucked at the end.
When I arrived home, I was told that I was zealous and that my siblings aren’t like me.
What?!
I’m not zealous, but I know why I believe what I believe and I’m sticking to my guns about it. And I was told from a family member later during the break that I was not worth the inconvenience that I bring whenever I’m home.And that I shouldn’t come back home in the near future because I’m not worth the work of living with them.That really hurt, after that statement I was left in a state of self awareness.
I believe that everyone wishes and hopes for a great family time when they visit for the Holidays, but that doesn’t always happen the way we plan. Anyway, with all that was said left me in a state of hurt and comparison. Hurt that my family members that I grow up with would not expect me that way I was. And comparisons to other people that I know have great relationships with their family.I’m doing ministry 24/7 and my relationships with my family suck, to simply say it the way it is.And that’s not right at all.
When I arrived back to Texas, my roommate Tara Milburn had been listening to Shane and Shane on her break at home.Embracing Accusations in the eleventh track on their new album “Pages,” I recommend this CD to everyone.Pretty much she tells me the lyrics to the song.And as she shared what the song was all about, I began to have chills go up my spine and tears started flowing.This was the first time that I was hardcore persecuted from my Bible Believing family members in all my five years of being in Texas.Right when everything seems to be smoothing out, something breaks.Never let your guard down, even with your family.Below are the words, they’re powerful.
Shane & Shane Embracing Accusation lyrics
The father of lies Coming to steal Kill and destroy All my hopes of being good enough I hear him saying cursed are the ones Who can’t abide He’s right Alleluia he’s right!
The devil is preaching The song of the redeemed That I am cursed and gone astray I cannot gain salvation Embracing accusation
Could the father of lies Be telling the truth Of God to me tonight? If the penalty of sin is death Then death is mine I hear him saying cursed are the ones Who can’t abide He’s right Alleluia he’s right!
Oh the devil’s singing over me An age old song That I am cursed and gone astray Singing the first verse so conveniently He’s forgotten the refrain Jesus saves!
